Still confused

I'm sure that I wrote my very own blog yesterday. What is this? The site said I don't have any blog yet. Please...how could I become so retarded? O what happen to me? haha.Very funny. Huffft...Eventhough this thing could happen all the time, I won't quit my self from doing it again and again. Do you know what I mean? You don't have to know much , though. I just want to have fun with this blog, so I'm gonna do what I want. Yeah, welcome to my world.
I feel the freedom, although it seems I just made it out. It's not real. I just wanna set myself free from all of my assignments. I want to get out from college A.S.A.P, wkwkwk. It's not even a year, and I have made this fun thougts that I will leave my college soon. What a pity! To be honest, I can't enjoy anything since the first day I commited to enter the college. I could feel that this wasn't gonna be good, but I have no choice. It doesn't mean I chose this major because I had no choice. Well, I loved English and I wanted to learn more. I had not much choice, this was something that I really wanted to do. The energy and high spirit to learn decrease a little bit, but I will try my best. I won't quit that easy...
I experienced a completely strange lecturing today. My class (MKU)  consisted of many kinds of faculties, yeah you know, we don't know each other. The class is usually boring too, but what I experienced was beyond my imagination...jjreng,jreng(backsound). The class was so fantastically fun. The lecture was just like our mom, sister, and friend. She took 'em all. I know, it's not supposed to be happened in college. I felt totally as if I was sitting in my high school classroom in my senior year. We talked to each other too, the friends whom I didn't know, boys or girls, whether they came from science, economy, art, language, social etc. We came as one. We even mocked our own major, and laughed at it. That was great. I change my perception toward college a little due to this great experience. It was totally fun...