suggestive

Hmmm, today's title is suggestive. Pretty extreme topic, but I don't want to expose anything about it. It's just because this word kept lingering in my mind in these past few days. I thought this word meant the same as suggestion itself, and guess what? I was completely wrong. The meaning is... I think it'd be better if you find it out by yourself  because I've told you I'm not gonna talk about it. Ok, that's all about the title... I explain it to you just as a precaution if you guys will think less about me because of the title. Fine, fine, I'm done with the title. Let's move to the next session...J.U.M.P!
Nothing's special happened today. Everything runs as usual. I go to classes, do assignments, meet friends, yeah typical things that happen to a college student. I think I have one good story to tell. Well, I'm working on another project which is nothing has to do with my college. I'm not going to tell you what it is. So, the project takes all of my attention to it. It's driving me insane, because I haven't made any progress. Actually, this project is so challenging since this is the chance for me to show myself that I can do it. It will hurt my pride if I can't. Let's get back to the story.
With this pressure, I do many things. You know sometimes it's hard to control my emotions, and with my terrible  condition it's getting worst. I become more careless. Especially in the campus, I did something which was humiliated and hurt my pride for sure. Surprisingly, I didn't feel anything like embarrassed or stuff. I thought that's fine. I had another thing which much more depressing ,though. Then I left the feeling behind. I felt so normal...This is totally not me who would worry if I just make a little mistake. This uncontrolled emotions helped me handle the situation which I couldn't bear to face. It's something. Something for me.. and there's nothing has to do with Syahrini. See you...