a change

What a tiring day! I had to be in campus from 7 a.m. to 6 p.m. What a crazy! My condition is not that good, so I can actively study and stuffs. I really hate this situation. I need to take a rest, too. I am not that healthy. I have tons of work left to do. I have my assignments, final projects, house chores, etc. It seems like no one wants to understand, or even care about it. I am just a human, not a superhuman. How could people expect me to sit still in the class, listen to lectures, and answer questions, from 7 a.m. to 6 p.m.? 

I don’t understand what those people have in minds. They have gone too far. What if somebody get sick or stress? Will they take the responsible? The answer is no, never. They’re not taking any responsible. That’s student’s problem. You came to this college, we never asked you to come. That thoughtless sentence is the remedy for these things. Sometimes I wonder, ‘are they human? Do they have human heart?’ I know that they do this for goods. I understand that, but please understand that not all of us are able to take this.

I think this has to do with me, too. Some of it is my fault. I know that. I should have done all those stuffs before whining like this. This is my bad habit, I keep thinking about my works, but I totally just think about it. I won’t race to my laptop, or my books to begin these works. I spend hours and hours, but no result. My assignments are still plenty, and so are the other things. This is not going to work. I must make a change.