terrible day

Terrible day! I hate today! I hate it! This is the first time I feel anxious with something since I started this semester. I did very bad at introduction to linguistics’ test. I feel totally sorry about this. I feel so deeply guilty that I couldn’t do it right. I feel so sorry, like I can’t stand anymore. I’m sorry mom. I should’ve studied well. I should’ve listened to you. I’m so sorry. I don’t know what to say. It’s just, I’m terrible… I really wanted to give my all into it, but I wasn’t able to do so. I’m just sorry.

I had two tests today. They were introduction to linguistics and KWN. I didn’t study well last night. I didn’t even study KWN at all-totally not. In fact, I watched videos last night. Now, I reap what I sow. I feel terrible about me. I just wanna scream and run. I want to be alone-just me and the despair. I want to study for tomorrow’s test. I will be taking two tests, too. The first one will be listening, and then pronunciation. I’m lost at both-even worst at pronunciation. Lots of pages from the pronunciation book; I should master each tonight. I don’t know how, but I will.

I didn’t do very bad at KWN, because books were allowed. I kept the track, and I think I wasn’t very bad. I’m quite satisfied to the test. I don’t know what the result will be, but I think it won’t be so bad. I just hope so. I really hope that I can remember all of the materials of pronunciation, so I will make it. I’ll get a good mark. I actually want to master this course; I really do. I guess I just have to study harder. Please pray for me, so I can make it.